Hey, everyone!
I hope that you all have been well! Wow, things have been moving quite quickly these days! Looking back, I can see how God is working in my life, and honestly, I wasn't the best at being patient through the process. Today, I will be talking about the three topics that have been buzzing around in my head.
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As you may already know, it's been nearly a year since I've been going through a lightheaded problem. Basically, this past month, I've had to skip some school because it's gotten so bad. It would get really bad when I was inside the classroom, but recently, it had been affecting me when I was outside. I was certain that I wouldn't have been able to go to Korean school. And this was just this past week!
So, after nearly a year of dealing with this, God has blessed me by letting me go to church! By this, I mean that countless times in the past, I have had to leave church, alongside with one of my parents, because of my situation. Even though it really couldn't be helped, I felt bad to have dragged my parents along after entering the building for only 5-10 minutes. Then, one Sunday, I remembered that I had watched my mom work upstairs with the cameras, and I was decently ok. I still felt like I had to pass out, but not as much. So, when my mom went to this party with the team upstairs, she told her boss my situation and he said that I could man the lights for church. It is very surreal to me because it reminds me of something that I might do for part of a future career! (*Arirang tv)
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My dream has always felt so distant from me. It was hard to constantly watch other people live their lives, busy living their dreams when I felt like it was so far away. But I've learned to live in the moments that God gave us. Not only will we won't get to live in them again, but they're there for a reason. There's a reason why I was lightheaded for nearly a year and counting. There's a reason why I started to go to Korean school. There's a reason for everything, and when God unfolds his plan in front of us, then we can look back and see the explanation for everything.
Therefore, my first point is "answering prayers." Many people have prayed for me, many people genuinely care about what I am going through, and I myself have also been praying for a breakthrough in this sticky situation. This past week, perhaps this past Tuesday, I ate a decent breakfast. It was then did I realize that if I eat a healthy breakfast, and make sure I'm full, my day is a lot easier. I was able to go to school like everyone else for the most part, and it felt good to almost be back to "normal." Secondly, He's allowed me to go church and Korean school. I've been wanting to go to Korean school for so long, and it is so amazing how it turned out. (Read the blog before this to find out what I went through yesterday!)
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Next, "patience." Oh boy, patience. Not only have I had to learn how to be patient through this lightheaded process, but I've also come to realize that God's way is so much better than my way. If things had gone out the way I wanted them to be, I would've had to quit my job that I wanted in the summer because of my lightheadedness and I wouldn't have met the people I met in Korean school. I have also really wanted to do something on the weekend. Over the summer and throughout the year, I can't lie, I get bored on the weekends because I don't have a license, and I feel bad to ask my parents to take me somewhere when they take me to and from school five days a week. That is the reason why I wanted a job. I didn't like wasting my time doing pretty much nothing. But of course, that is when I started blogging, so there's always something positive about this situation!
Lastly, "blessings." This one goes without saying. I feel very blessed to have gone through what God asked me to do. I understand that it won't be easy when He tests us, but He doesn't test us because He doesn't like us, He tests us to make us into a better person-so that not only will we get blessed through going it, but also so that other people will get blessed by it. I hope that I have been a blessing to others even when I've been going through this situation and that other people will be encouraged by me. I learned quite a bit through this including the points I mentioned above. Believe me when I say that God knows best. When things don't go as planned, don't worry about it because God has something better, ok?
And as always~
Much love and keep dreaming, Momo
