What if I want to be a Single Cat-Lady in Korea, Mom?

Hello wix family!

From the title, you can probably guess what I am going to be talking about in this blog post. Growing up in a privileged home with food always on the table, clothes on my back, and the Bible available at all times, I lived life happily. I lived under the roof of an amazing family who provided excellent, private education for me and an opportunity to commit myself to God. I believe that He has truly blessed me with these provisions that I can often forget.

But, as I was becoming more aware of the future and what career choice I should pursue, I didn’t realize something very important-how to take care of my dreams. My parents desire the best for me and want me to have a stable job so that I can support myself and live successfully, and I understood that well. I get that I should prioritize money income or hobby, but that also got me thinking about other things. However, with the whole idea of “finding myself” in high school, I struggled with learning how to see the joy in the mundane things, how to live my dreams, and to simply just be happy with everyday life. I wanted to please my parents, yet at the same time, dream of one day, somehow, someway, live in South Korea.

Now many of you may think, “oh, she’s one of those Korean enthusiasts who scream over the thought of their favorite singers and actors.” Well, to some degree, yes, I love the Korean culture, but it also very important to me. The reason why it’s so special to me is because it helps me to live today, to look forward to my Korea daydream, and to make me feel alive when I need some sort of substance in me on the way to school or to a forced social gathering. I know that all seems very corny, and yes that took me over five minutes to write, but it’s very true.

Because life is all about pleasing God here on Earth. Yes, the earth is twisted and corrupted, but there’s also a reason why we’re still here. God still wants us to do something for Him here, to leave here with a mark under His signature. Life is all about finding that gift God placed on your heart and use it-to use it till you can’t anymore, knowing that you were able to help someone find the light in the darkness. Life is all about looking at the mundane things in life and taking the time to stop and smile, because once you’ve wasted away your days being bitter, then you could’ve missed the chance to make someone else happy.

So, that’s why I dream of being a single cat lady living in an apartment in Korea, writing alone in her room with a cup of coffee and ramen noodles at hand. That’s why this quirky, awkward, “lump on the log” girl has so much trouble talking to people without stuttering or trying not to cry in fear when she’s forced to play basketball in P.E. It’s because she wants to live everyday happy, to slip notes in her best friend’s locker to tell her that she’s beautiful and loved, and to eat ramen noodles at lunch and imagine that she’s eating it in Korea. That’s why you find her spacing out all the time (I’m sorry if that object happened to be you, I promise I’m not creepy) and daydreaming, it’s because she’s thinking of what to write on her blog!

So maybe I don’t dream of finding my future spouse all the time like many girls do or working in a normal office job that pays well, but instead risking everything to pursue her dream in another country and be happy there.Yes, we should all listen to our parents and get a job that we will be able to live off properly and leave our interests for the weekend because we can’t live off minimal wage, or without a steady income. But just maybe God is also calling me to live a life of blogging and working in TV broadcasting stations. And maybe it wasn’t all about trying to live up to everyone’s expectations but instead learning how care of your own dreams too. And I don’t know about you, but I think life’s worth the chance to put yourself out there and to just start living properly.