Hey everyone!
If you do not know already, I am a Christian. This means that I believe the God who created the whole universe and made me and you! I want to live my life for Him, and if you don't already, I hope that you too, come to know Him!
So, here's my testimony!
Much love and keep dreaming,
Momo
Art by Pascal Campion
Unlike many people who get up on the podium and tell the church crowd how they experienced a “miraculous testimony,” I do not have a dramatic or “life-changing” experience like that. Although my testimony may not include “near-to-death” situations or radical life changes, my testimony is something that may reach out to those facing similar situations as I in everyday society today.
Growing up in a privileged home with parents who sacrificed and worked hard to provide for their children, I grew up happy and blessed. They reared me up in the Word and provided means of helping me to find Jesus. And like many children who grew up in the church, I committed my life to Jesus at a very young age. Of course at this time and throughout most of my life, I didn't fully understand what it meant to have a relationship with Jesus, and became used to simply saying that I was a Christian without a second thought.
However, I think that I truly came to know Jesus was when I hit the common life crisis stage of “what am I doing with my life?” in middle school. During this age, I felt very pressured to be like my older sisters because they had perfect grades and did some form of art that my parents liked. So, I tried everything from gardening to calligraphy in attempt to please my parents because I felt like a talentless, awkward, third-wheel who still hid behind her parents whenever they were talking to someone. I became desperate to maintain a 4.0 G.P.A., but that all went down when I took Latin a year later. Although it was very devastating to me at first, I am actually very relieved that I got a “b” in that class. I can now go through school without stressing as much and I find that I am much more happier. Because although grades are important, they aren’t going to show you the beauty and worth of the talents and gifts inside. When God revealed to me what my gift was, I was blessed to know that I can use that gift everyday. This gift helped me to realize so many precious things in life that most pass by without a thought and showed me how to be a blessing to those around me. It may take a while on life’s journey for God to reveal this gift, but it’s all worth the wait.
And all of this is to say that through certain circumstances, I learned how to let go of the things that truly don’t matter and how to just be happy. Because although grades and G.P.A. get you into college, you also need to learn how to take care of yourself, to tend to your dreams, to be appreciative of everyday life, and to choose to find joy wherever you go. My dream to live in an apartment with a cat and work behind the cameras at a T.V. studio may not necessarily come true. But all I know is that I don’t have to only please my parents and others all the time. In other words, I don’t have to become a doctor and get married to another doctor and have super smart children. Of course parents want us to succeed in life and desire only the best for us, so I will obey their advice and listen to their concerns. But personally, I think that there’s more to life for me out there. Plus, life’s all about pleasing God here on Earth and following His will for us. And through all of this schooling and “finding who we are” crises’ only leads to a job that we regret, wishing that we could live our dreams and desperately searching for a spouse just not to be one of those “poor single people,” then I don’t think that that’s what my purpose here on Earth is. Of course we need to have a stable job with an income that we can live off comfortably, but I think that it’s that risk and adventure in seeking out other options that makes life interesting. If God approves of me to be a single cat-lady who lives with her best friend in a small apartment, I would be more than happy to live that dream. And if not, I know that He’s got something better.