Hey everyone!
I hope that you all have been well! It's been a crazy past few weeks with everything going on, but I'm glad to live this life! I pray that you all will have a great week this week, and that whatever comes your way, you'll be happy.
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What really matters in life?
I'm the type of person to overcomplicate and overanalyze most situations in my life. I think that I'm defined by things that don't truly matter and stress over every little detail and conversation I have. It's so easy to look at other peoples' lives and think that they have it all-while you're stuck in a place where you don't want to be. You look at people who have it "easier" than you or have a more exciting life, and you feel a pang of loneliness with all of this wishful thinking.
But, no matter what happens, it all boils down to the fact that God sees the bigger picture. He's allowing us to be exactly where we're at at this exact time in our life because we NEED to complete this step before we let God turn the next page in our life. Without all of these steps in life, we can't be the person we were made to be (please excuse my corniness) and we just have to make the best of what God puts on our plate, no matter what it may be.
In my case, when God gave me lightheadedness, I was honestly very confused and a bit hurt if I must confess. It's not easy at all to live with this-at all! In fact, I spend many of my school days sitting outside the classroom because I can't take it anymore, not to mention that going places on the weekend aren't as fun anymore since whenever I think of going out, I just think of passing out. Basically, I can't live like most people. And the sad, inevitable part of it is, that many people don't really understand.
But, you know what? I've learned a lot from this. There's some situations in life that we just can't change. It's as simple as that. But, it's the courage to keep humble and ask God for help to do His plan that helps us through every life situation. He knows what He's doing, and even if we don't understand, then maybe we don't need to know right away. Making the best out of life and accepting what comes our way will get you far in life.
Secondly, I learned from lightheadedness that sometimes, we need to work hard in life. Before lightheadedness, I would tell the doctor that I do yoga once a week. Of course, I knew that he knew that I didn't exercise, but that's ok. I was willing to take the risk. So, today, when my mom told me that I needed to try harder and exercise twice a day, I wasn't excited. It's already hard enough trying to vigorously exercise for half an hour every morning, and I didn't think that I had the mentality to do another round. But, I learned, that we can't give up when things get hard and we need to work hard on our part. It's so weird to think back of what my life was before lightheadedness. I hardly ever exercised, and if I did, I was good for a month. I didn't eat as cleanly, and think of how important it is to take care of my body. I wouldn't have gone to the media room upstairs and who knows if I would've gone to Korean school or not. I really doubted God that He would allow me to go to Korean school. This just proves again that He knows me better than I know myself.
And honestly, it's been a struggle for me to not be ashamed of my acne, my awkwardness, my tall height, and other things. I especially don't like my acne because it's sometimes just downright embarrassing. So many people seem to care so much about getting rid of acne, and I do too, it's just that I don't want to obsess over it. I can tell when other people are noticing it and when they bring it up, it's not the happiest moment, if you know what I mean. It's easy to look at people who don't have acne, (basically my whole class) and be jealous that they don't have to deal with my problems.
But, you know what? What really matters is how we make a difference in others lives and living it for God. In the end, the people who judge/view you only as someone of your outer appearance, then I'd re-evaluate who you should hang around. The people who will see the beautiful light inside of you will see you not as all the things you think you are wrongly defined as, but as the person who writes stories at night or bakes cakes for her friends. They'll see you as that DDL, (Check out my onnechans' blog! www.daydreamerslight.wix.com/mysite) and for those people who just can't see it, that's ok. Every DDL has their own story.
So, whenever you feel like you're being defined by things you're not, remember that you are so much more than you think you are. Sure you've gone through ups and downs in life, but whatever is going on right now, you're surviving. You're alive and breathing. I bet you you're stressed out right now. So, stop for a moment, sit up or stand up with a straight back and breathe in. You got this! You have a future ahead, smiles to share, and a heart that's ready to DDL the world. Don't ever be afraid of that DDL heart of yours and know that God has a plan ahead for you. By "saving the world" day by day by doing things for other people and making life happier, I think you'll make even Kiki happy.
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(From Kiki's Delivery Service OST)
"And if I could make just one life better, bring a smile to your face when you're under the weather, then I'm feeling like I've finally found my home."
Much love and keep dreaming,
Momo