Hey everyone!!!
How are you enjoying the week so far? Hmm, today wasn't as good as other days, but a good technique that helps me to cope with unideal situations is to come up with at least two good things about the situation/or in life in general. For instance, is it just me or do you compare/compete with other people inside? I think that this a weak part of me at school-I simply want to be better than others, especially people close to me.
For example, we had a presentation today that I was really nervous about and my friend got full points while I got four points docked down. Plus, it didn't help that my lightheadedness was bad again today. I was so happy that it was getting over, and with those two things happening, a bunch of bad vibes kind of compiled and led me to selfishly believe that I am entitled to and deserving of a better life. Another example, we took a quiz and she got a 10/10, while I got a 9/10. Little things like this can get to me if I let it and I think that if we let ourselves believe that bad grades automatically equates us to a "lesser" person than people with lower grades, then we aren't as good as them as a person.This is totally not true! Though people with good grades and looks seem to have it so much easier, I actually think that moments like these help me to be humble and realize that sometimes, life won't be fair.
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About the technique I was talking about, here's an example:
1. I have bad acne and it sucks that I can't change it overnight/it's been here for years
Well, I can either sulk about it all day or think "I wouldn't have gotten into skincare/taking care of my skin as much as I do now if I had crystal clear skin!" Or "By being brave about my acne, I can show other people that they don't have to be afraid of their insecurities," or " I wouldn't have gotten into makeup!"
So, anyways, I was looking back and having a major cringe attack-from just everything. Honestly, it was really hard for me to get over it, I'm still not fully over it, but I think the best thing is not to focus so much on the past, but to focus on how you can be a blessing and a hard worker for God now. Looking back, I see a lot of regret, a lot of words spoken that I wished weren't spoken, and moments I wish I could change, but, that's the past and nothing can be done about it in my situation.
In this picture below, the girl, Kim Hye Jin in the drama, "She Was Pretty" really impacted me. She cared more about doing her best in life, and though people looked at her weirdly because she was "ugly" or "weird" she never stopped being herself. Even though I feel like people at school/church have a hard time accepting me because I'm "different," I think that it more important to focus on how you can be a blessing-and that often starts with a smile on your own face! I highly recommend this drama!
Boy, what a day. I hope you remember how much you are loved and no matter what is in your past, that your past does not define you and that you are an amazing person! I can't wait to reveal my surprise to you!
Much love and keep dreaming,
Momo
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