Hey everyone!
I know I haven't written in a while, but there's something that I can't stop smiling about. And from the title of this blog, I bet you're getting all sorts of mixed clues!
Today, I talked to one of my onnechans, and she recently told me another name for DDL: ache. If you don't know what DDL is, I recommend going over to her and my other sister's page: (www.daydreamerslight.wix.com/mysite) because they will explain it to you a lot better than I can! Once you've done, that, let's talk!
I ache for so many things, and these aches from the bits and pieces I find in my life that remind me of all the people who've helped me to find DDL, of my dream, and of God's great plan for my life. I think that for so many years, the reason why it's been hard for me to "fit in," to be happy at some points, and to simply enjoy life is because I've been away from these aches for too long. Some aches are quite obvious like the anime convention I went to, while other aches are a lot harder to find and reach because it seems like other people can't recognize them like I do.
During the normal schedule of things, I find that I feel most like myself on the weekends, or at Korean school where I can express myself through makeup and fashion while living a part of my dream. I also feel like myself when I am at church, doing the lights because I feel needed. (I also get to be in a place where I don't feel socially awkward that much, isn't that amazing?!) I think that some of the main reasons why I feel the most alive during these times is because 1.) I hate my acne and I get to finally be a bit more confident 2.) The uniform (Must I say more?) 3.)It's away from people.
That's why I've always told myself that I just can't wait till I get out of high school so that I could live a little more, but this is where I was so wrong. There are so many aches in each day that we can miss out on when we get distracted with the stresses of life and when we start focusing on ourselves. God places us in each season of our lives for a reason, and I am glad that I am still in high school. I feel loved, protected, and needed-even if it is hard to find aches at times. And to help me with this, it's taken a bit of courage to do this, but everyday, I try to surround myself with something happy. I put a bow in my hair, I curl my hair-whatever it may be, but the point is, that sometimes we just have to simply not care if we look a bit silly, as long as we are pleasing God and blessing others!
So, the point is, don't doubt the season God has you in. Even though it will be hard to find the aches and DDLs in life, sometimes, all we need to do is step back, take our eyes off ourself, and be thankful for all that God has allowed in our life. He always gives us enough. So maybe there's just one thing you can look forward to, or maybe you think life simply sucks because you feel cooped up and there's nothing to do. Whatever it is, there's ALWAYS an opportunity to be a shining light, in whatever situation you are in. God doesn't just put you in this stage of life for some reason! So, always search for happiness, and turn each moment into worship to God-our lives aren't about ourselves.
And as always....Thank you, my wix family, for being my ache-I hope that I can be your ache too.